It's not a tumor

So picture Arnold saying "It's not a tumor" in 'Kindergarten Cop'. I talked to Mama Starla yesterday and we have concluded that my muscle pain is... plantar fasciitis. There is a tendon that runs the length of your foot. If it gets tight it can cause pain and swelling in the calf muscle. No blood clot.
I realized after talking with my mom that I have this pair of shoes that I wear to work which make me walk differently. A cause of plantar fasciitis is if your feet roll inward too much when you walk (excessive pronation). I know I was doing that the other day b/c my feet will swell and contract throughout the day. This makes the shoes sometimes too big on me. So I was rolling my foot to keep it from falling off.
Many thanks to Starla for helping me diagnose this problem. It's not a tumor. Phew. Crisis averted as sis Pi would say.

Happy Valentine's Day

It's been a while... We had a great Superbowl party. Too much food and too much beer. I did have the Monday after it off so we could clean the house and nurse our hangovers. I ended up calling in on Tuesday. Sometimes I wake up and I cannot go into work. It didn't help that Dan was on vacation until Wednesday. We spent the day together. I usually feel I should accomplish something on my days off but I just relaxed. Weird, right?

My "head" doctor appointment is on Tuesday. I'm scared and excited at the same time. No one ever wants to hear that there's something wrong with them but in my case I kinda do. I hate my job. I don't use the word hate lightly. This job has sucked the life and sanity out of me and I hope that therapy can help me through.

Dan, of course, thinks he has to fix my problems. It kills him that he can't fix me. I'm hoping to get advice on how to deal with him as well as my job. We're ok so far but he thinks I should be happy and if he can't make me happy... it makes him sad.

We normally cook a grand dinner for Valentine's but this year we're going out. I wanted to go to the restaraunt we went to on my birthday but typical man waited until the last minute to get a reservation. So, of course, no openings. We're going to a burger joint near us, Goldberg's, where we went on my actual birthday. They had the best sloppy joes!

I'm trying to see the brigher side of life. I try and leave work at work but at night when I can't fall asleep all I think about is work. Boo. To combat that we have ballroom on Tues. and Thurs. nights at 9pm. This helps me fall asleep b/c I'm trying to remember the steps while I'm falling asleep. We're getting pretty good. But this means they are going to try and sell us more lessons. Both Dan and I are terrible at saying "no". I mean, if it's a telemarketer I can say no b/c they are a stranger. But our dance teacher is kind of our friend now and it will be harder. But we are not willing to pay for more lessons when we're happy with what we have now.

It snowed all day today and I got to leave work after lunch. Sweet! Dan tried to start the snow blower but it wasn't happening so he shoveled. I would've helped but I'm fighting what I think is a severe muscle strain in my right calf muscle. I woke up on Thursday and I thought I must've had a weird dream where I flexed or pointed my foot all night. But I woke up again this morning with it. I could barely put weight on my right heel. Try taking a shower like that... not fun:(

If it doesn't go away by tomorrow I'm going to the emergeny care center b/c I looked at webmd and now I'm worried that I have a blood clot. I like webmd and all but it always tells you the most dire outcome. If you have a headache it's a brain tumor. If I have a muscle cramp it's a blood clot. Stupid internet. I don't think it's a blood clot b/c it's not warm to the touch and there is no discoloration. Heat seems to help. I took a bath and that was GREAT! I have the heating pad on while I'm watching TV. I don't want to spend Valentine's Day getting an ultrasound of my calf only to have them tell me it's a muscle strain and I should take Tylenol and stay off it. Oh, thanks, here's $200 for that. We'll see.

I wish everyone a happy and loving Valentine's Day. Don't go buy extravegant gifts. Just let the other person know they are loved and will always be loved. Don't give in to the spending of this made up holiday! Go out to eat or eat in. As long as you can enjoy each other, that's all that matters. I love my family and friends. Have a good weekend, Valentine or not.